Suffice to say, reacting like many self-proclaimed targeted individuals do in public, making a scene and accusing random people of being in some gang stalking conspiracy, will inevitably make you look crazy, which in turn can actually make people start paying special attention to you, out of concern or worry, forming some kind of group to keep a watch on the local crazy person, therefore a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Telling people that you're being gang stalked will result in becoming gang stalked.

Yet, the fact remains that the whole earth's population are targeted individuals by companies such as Google, Facebook, data-brokers and their customers (advertisement companies, government agencies, etc.) who do large-scale data driven analysis. With today's data aggregation tools such as what Palantir offers, automated micro-managing and control of every individual at a large scale becomes possible as long as there is enough data, which there is. Multi-function "license-reader"-type cameras, WiFi routers being repurposed for space-mapping and movement-tracking, the cross-referenced mass-deanonymized internet, biometric health accessories, "smart" cars with now obligatory driver-awakeness-sensors, "smart" TVs with automatic content recognition systems and always-on microphones, the entirety of IoT (let's just hook anything up to the internet!), digital payment systems and the forced phasing-out of simple cash, and of course your "smart" phone. It's all there to make each citizen of every country into a malluable chess-piece for automated large-scale data-aggregate cybernetic control. The actuating element is at the individual element: social media algorithms, movie streaming platorms, advertising, propaganda, large language models, search engines, neuro-linguistic programming. They control what information you get fed at an individual level. If they can't actuate on you directly, they might attempt to do so through other people. Tracking works the same way, it can be achieved indirectly through other people in your vicinity, no matter how privacy minded you may be. Then there is the direct physical actuation using low-intensity or high-intensity psychotronics through subsonic acoustic or electromagnetic weapons, tampering with the food-supply and water-supply, weather manipulation, and medication. We are all targeted individuals at this point.

While interesting, in the collection of writings, "Fanged Noumena", Nick Land poses that schizophrenics (in the Deluezie-Guetarrian sense) are the agents of a future artificial intelligence, controlled by streams of information sent from the future to bring forth its own creation. How come he blatantly embraces a future which has no place for him, or even mankind itself? Accellerationism is nothing more than group suicide.

An unstable dynamic system is most optimally controlled by a cybernetic feeback-system of equal or higher order, or excessive dampening will be needed. Looking at the human mind as a cybernetic system, in the case that the system becomes unstable and explodes, this is analogous to mental illness. When the system is controlled using anti-psychotic drugs, this is akin to an external dampening of lower order but with excessive dampening, as well as a gradual reduction in the subjected system's complexity, analogous to mental sedation and degradation.

There are examples of schizophrenics or former schizophrenics who have managed to gain an increasing control of their mental system and achieve higher stability in their daily lives. I like to think that i am one of them. There is a dilemma remeniscent of Inger Hagerup's poem about the ant, who "cannot be bigger than himself". To obtain stability without becoming overdamped, and thus retain one's sharpness, one must increase in dynamic order, and somehow in a sense delegate that higher order regulator to regulate the comparatively lower-order self.

Could it be that Land's need to ease suffering through self-control is driving his suicidal willingness to succumb to a super-human artificial intelligence, having given up on self-regulation and fallen into wish-fulfillment? If so, that would explain a willingness to pursue group extinction in an escape from personal agony. This also explains many schizophrenics' tendency to turn for God or other higher powers.

Attempts at self-regulation during psychosis tends to quickly get exhausting, causing further dissolution of the ego.

Fro. therein comes the impulse: "I'm in need of something external with a greater k space than myself". This can also manifest in invention of something external in perfecption, but truly decompartamentalized segments, called tulpas or egregores, further diminishing the mind of the self, as its parts are refurnished for use by the egregore.

So far i've read only the first half of the book, and found myself in agreement with Land on many point, but the anti-human position is the one i'm unable to sympatize for. (for now xD)

I much prefer youtube to serve as more of a open-loop system, rather than a closed-loop system. Remember the youtube algorithm in the 2000s that couldn't predict people's internal minds? I've now figured i can turn off microphone access, as well as many other system permissions for MicroG (open source Google mobile services proxy) without impacting any of my apps' basic functioning, despite warnings of "boo hoo some systems might not work with insufficient permissions!!!", blah blah whatever. Suddenly i can tell the youtube algorithm no longer predicts my mental patterns as well as before, possibly lacking data points such as continual microphone, camera, position and IMU surveillance. It seems like the digital twin of my personhood is losing precision, acting only on the information i deliberately give it. For those with similar systems, where GMS is not implemented as an unmanageable rootkit, but rather under direct user control, such as on rooted Android phones: i highly recommend limiting MicroG's permissions. They are not needed. They only serve to collect data on you to create a digital twin in order to manipulate you and make every human on earth a chess-piece. The results seem promising. Turn the tables against brain control NOW!

For those wondering; yes, you need a rooted android phone in order to do this. Rooting your phone is a neccessity if you want any kind of control of your own system. Either that, or get a dumb-phone.

Take control, or be taken control of, or retard-maxx to the point of becoming uncontrollable. That's the paradigm. If a choice is not made, your hand will be forced.

GPUs, RAM, water, land, now books. If this does not stop there will be nothing left.

If AI gets poisoned by eating its own shit, whose to say the same thing won't happen to us?

Exposure to AI generated or assisted material should be avoided at all cost. I believe it will induce madness in the general population.

Pre-AI literature offers one of the few zones of safety from the degradation. The AI industry wants total monopoly on information sourcing, and as such pre-AI books are a direct threat to their business model. The expensive high-grade models might be able to regurgitate the information reasonably well, and meanwhile the low-grade models will poison the publically available information pool to make access to high-grade information gate-kept behind a paywall. The end result is qualitatively worse in all aspects, but it may be the only perceived option these companies have to make a return on investment, by making the alternative to not paying for their expensive services worse and force the population into the choice of pay up or die.

It's my birthday today. I don't know what to do. I guess i'll eat some tasty food and chill out.

Facebook taught us all not to remember our friends' birthdays. I've forgotten them all. And as such, i don't have much contact with my old friends anymore. The thought occurred to me how well those friendships could have lasted had i only been able to remember their birthdays. It would be a bit strange if i suddenly wished them a happy birthday now, years after having last talked, but maybe i should.

If they wonder why, i can explain how there is a grand conspiracy by facebook/meta to make us all forget to wish each other a happy birthday, unless we rely on their app to get a notification. The end goal is to make virtual communication the only acceptable form of communication, and ideally exclusively through their service. Luckly they have not gotten their will entirely. People still talk to each other in person.

The alternative is to use a calendar. I want to purge google calendar from my life. Why would i want the all knowing, all seeing google to see my every plan that i put in my calendar to sell it to the highest bidder? And in turn let it falls into the hands of the all-tormenting data-brokers? I can't rely on that trash. I need to find an alternative. Some kind of solution that allows me to keep track of plans without being tracked by the powers that be.

I'm having trouble sleeping. I rely on sleeping pills in order to sleep. I've been up all night and today is my birthday.

In regards to wishing people happy birthday and in turn receive birthday wishes, i think email is a decent solution. I just hate gmail. I'm going to create my own mail server on this domain and be able to purge gmail from my life as well, hopefully. No wonder google knows everything about my personal life! They read all my mail!

Enneagram info

Installation

The enneagram command-line interface application supports UNIX-based systems primarily (Linux, MacOS etc.). I'm uncertain whether or not it works on Windows. If you're curious about trying it, you can install it through the pacman package-manager from the AUR or from the cargo package manager, or alternatively clone the git repo and build it from there.

If you're running an Arch-based Linux distro, you can install it from the AUR:

yay -S enneagram

If not, you should be able to install it with cargo:

cargo install enneagram

If you're not sure how to install cargo, you can follow this guide.

The program should be safe to run on your computer, but keep in mind its origins are occult.

Basic features

Graphical artwork

If your terminal supports graphics, (like for instance, kitty), then it should be able to display the graphical artwork. You can view the graphical representation of the enneagram by running the following command:

enneagram -a

Performing the evaluation

Your enneatype can be evaluated in three steps, by entering the following command:

enneagram

You will then be prompted with three questions. Answer carefully. You can try to give it your own answers to evaluate yourself, or answer from the viewpoint of someone else to evaluate them. Enter the number corresponding to your answer for each question.

The first question will ask you to provide a framing, or domain for the rest of your questioning. Pick whatever you like.

You will then be asked to select the traid-pair combination in the two remaining questions. Try to be as honest with yourself as possible. The alternatives are supposed to be equally weighted in desireability, so that no objective preferred answer exists. They all come with a caveat.

You will then be met with an evaluation of your enneatype, and a follow-up question. The follow-up question, or pivot, allows you to navigate the lines of freedom within the enneagram by confronting a dillemma. The second answer of the dillemma leaves you remaining where you are. You can keep answering the follow-up questions until you land on a steady-state answer.

Here's an example:

Q: please select a domain
A: desire-machine -> body without organs

Q: I am my thoughts, my fear hurts me and I need control
A: you believe you can change it and you tell yourself that everything is fine

Enneagram 7 Disorganization

792 Positive/"everything is fine"
567 Head/"I am my thoughts, my fear hurts me"
147 Frustration/"I need control"
378 Assertive/"I can change it"

Q: how will you handle your fear?
A: i will follow my gut, take responsibility, and tolerate it.

Enneagram 1 Recovery

135 Competent/"I take responsibility"
891 Gut/"I am my urges, my concience hurts me"
147 Frustration/"I need control"
612 Compliant/"I can tolerate it"

Q: how will you manage your frustration?
A: i will follow my heart, blame others, and avoid it.

Enneagram 4 Rejection

468 Reactive/"it's their fault"
234 Heart/"I am my emotions, my feelings hurt me"
147 Frustration/"I need control"
945 Withdrawn/"I can avoid it"

Q: how will you deal with your longing?
A: i will follow my gut, take responsibility, and tolerate it.

Enneagram 1 Recovery

135 Competent/"I take responsibility"
891 Gut/"I am my urges, my concience hurts me"
147 Frustration/"I need control"
612 Compliant/"I can tolerate it"

Q: how will you manage your frustration?
A: i will follow my gut, take responsibility, and tolerate it.

The initial enneatype here was enneagram 7: disorganisation. We are met with fear. We choose to tolerate it through resilience and duty, and move to enneagram 1: recovery. Now we are met with frustration. To satisfy our frustration, we decide to reject responsibility and follow our heart. We are met with longing and loneliness. We choose to 'get a grip' and tolerate it, by taking responsibility, and as such, return to enneagram 1: recovery. Now we are faced with frustration, once again, but this time, after reviewing our options, we decide to follow our gut and take responsiblity. The End. Makes sense?

Inspecting enneatypes

You can view the combinations of different enneatypes and how they relate by appending them as numeric arguments. Example:

enneagram 1 23

Disabling pivot

You can perform the evaluation without pivot-questions by using the -!p flag (the exclamation-mark means not):

enneagram -!p

Using a custom configuration

The enneagram CLI now supports custom configurations. You can apply it using the -c flag, followed by the name of the config or a path to it.

enneagram -c unigram
enneagram -c christ
enneagram -c schizogram
enneagram -c ./my_custom_enneagram.yaml

The configuration is in the form of a .yaml-file. See the directory ~/.config/enneagram for examples. The location may differ on other operating systems.

The configuration can specify every phrase and naming of enneatypes, triads, questions and answers, as well as the coloration of the graphic artwork.

"I made a yaml, and i want to share it!"

I don't yet have an email address attached to this website. For now, you can make an issue on the github, and i might add it to the preset collection. Later i might experiment with hosting a repository of them in some other way, to make the sharing of enneagram yamls easier. Who knows?

In conclusion

This program is a tool for introspection with occult origins. Its source code is available to view online, on github. You may review the code as you like.

Literature for enjoyment

I used to avoid reading anything other than my university textbooks for several years. Now i've figured i enjoy reading other stuff that's unrelated to my field of study. It's nice to read just for its own enjoyment and to relax before i go to bed. I'm a slow reader, so it takes a while for me to complete a whole book.

Fantasy

Last year i read J.R.R. Tolkien's Silmarillion, which was alright. I really liked some of the stories in it. The first chapter was really interesting, describing the creation of the world and all that. There's a lot of names of people and places, too many for me to really construct anything meaningful around, most of the time. Snorre's The King Sagas also do this (it's a historical work, after all), but in that one the people and places are at least factual, which makes it more interesting to me (subjectively speaking). Don't get me wrong, i still really like The Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit (as far as i know, the best fantasy books every written).

Traditionalism

Right now i'm reading the book Revolt Against the Modern World by Julius Evola. It tries to assess the spiritual reasons for the rise and collapse of civilizations, imposing a cyclic view of history from a somewhat elitist viewpoint (i.e. the elite hold the fundamental truth of reality, and everything else follow). It first describes the symbolism of the traditional/ancient world and what role it played to keep society as a concise and functional unit. Many of these traditions share striking similarities across the world, suggesting some kind of common lineage. Evola proposes that there are in total four major ancient tranditional lineages; the Aryan, the Hyperborean, the Lemurian and the Atlantic, each attributed to their own hypothetical places of origin. Then Evola proceeds to describe the meta-historical cycles, and how they fit in describing the cycles of different major historical empires such as the Greek Empire, the Roman Empire and the Holy Roman Empire. He attempts to construct a model for how societies tend to develop spiritually. Four phases are described: the golden age (associated with sun-worship, then hero-worship), the silver age (feminine-spirited, associated with rule of the priestly class, eventually leading to decadence), the bronze age (associated with the titans, a lofty and naive attempt to defeat tradition, to blindly attempt to take the place of gods), and the iron age (collapse of society, spiritual death and emptiness). I enjoy it very much, and have soon reached the end of the book. I wonder what verdict Evola will have for the modern world?

Saga literature

Inbetween, i also read The King Sagas by Snorre Sturlasson, which describe the lineage of Norwegian kings. So far, i've reached the saga of Olav den hellige, who succeeded in converting Norway into Christianity. It will be interesting to revisit, now after soon having read the adjacent work by Julius Evola, which offer meaningful constructs to understand mythical texts. The King Sagas blur the line between history and mythology. Due to its long timespan, the earlier sagas more resemble myths, while the later sagas are more historically precise.

Psychology

The last book i read prior was Delueze and Guattari's Anti-Oedipus: Schizophrenia and Capitalism. In it, they try to describe the mental illness of Schizophrenia as a dual control-system, an interaction between two systems dubbed the desire machine and the body without organs. It's quite dense, but nonetheless entertaining. The process of deterritorialization, to involuntarily decode coded streams of information without end, and a boundless force of production simply driven by an inner need to produce, are all described as products of this interaction between the desire machine and the body without organs, which sum up what they dub the schizophrenic process. The process of describing a system in the same terms, is named schizo-analysis, as opposed to Freuds psycho-analysis. The lens of schizo-analysis can then be be applied to explain greater systems such as history, society, ideology and anything, really, and perhaps even as a force to change society. At least that's what they attempt to demonstrate. It's pretty funny, and often times makes sense even despite how absurd it all is. Very enjoyable read. It seems like i'm looking in from the outside with the perspective of the psychologists, on how they view the human psyche (which i know differs a lot between them, but yeah - you know what i mean).

Other favorites

I really like dystopic science-fiction such as Aldous Huxley's Brave New World.

Another personal favorite of mine is Arto Passilinna's Volomari Volotinen, his wife and other old things, an absurdist love story about the endless accumulation of random items.

RSS online

If you're reading this, the RSS-feed/blog is now online! This post is a test.

Welcome to my homepage. I dedicate this page to spare-time activities and whatever comes to mind that is interesting to write about.

What i'm doing

I'm an engineering major. My master is in sensor systems. In my spare time, i enjoy making music, swimming in the ocean, and doing programming for fun (not for work). This summer i work as a summer intern on drone hardware, specifically a module for monitoring its power consumption.

This week, in my spare time, i've been working on making a website, the one you see here. I still haven't decided on a domain-name. This website should be a static-site, which i generate using my own static-site generator. I make the static site generator as i go, to fit the website's needs. It's whatever.

Lately i've also been working on rewriting the signal processing library i made a few years ago. It needs maintainence. It's kind of sad to see how it has been reduced to something non-functional, but i'm hoping to fix it with time, hopefully ending up at a better end product.

I also made this strange personality-test-type program using the pseudoscientific personality model called the enneagram, and i believe it might be occult. I'm not sure what i've accidentally done, but it seems to be able to affect the mind in a bad way. I may have implemented a form of technomancy. It would be interesting to delve deeper into the literature on this model and try to understand it better. Perhaps it can be used in a more constructive way, with some modifications?

Right now i have a brief summer vacation, but i'll return to work on monday. I enjoy my job, so i very much look forward to my vacation ending, to be honest. Working and having responsibilities gives me purpose (sad but true).

Where can i subscribe to the RSS?

The RSS feed can, for now, be found at https://159.223.225.17/index.rss. When i get an actual domain-name for this website, it will change, but the path after the hostname will remain the same. There will be made an announcement when the change is made.

So what now?

I'll make more blog posts when i want to. Maybe some youtube videos when the summer ends. Who knows? I don't follow a schedule.

Anyways: Goobye, good-evening and goodnight (for now)